S.O.L.A.R - aku muak

at the sight of the word
at the sound of the word
S.O.L.A.R
T.E.N.A.G.A S.U.R.I.A
S.O.L.A.R.I.S
شمسي
S.O.L.A.R.E
太阳能

i feel like i will puke
yes
i am bored with this word
and i am trying hard not to hate it
i will use this word for another 11 months
hoping not to hear the word again after the duration
but
what will i do then?
where should i go?
let the time decide
and hoping for the best to come
insyaALLAH